When boredom strikes.

Ohmigod!! I want to go out so bad. I've been sitting at home doing nothing but Facebooking and thumblering.I can't stand it anymore.Pleeeeeease. Actually there were some people who asked me to go out with them but I can't because I'm waiting for my loved ones to ask me.Where are you loved ones? Bestfriends? hello? boyfriend? cousins? when you guys are free i went out with you.can you guys at least call and ask me to go out. Im tired of waiting.

Some people already ask me you know,zuhairi asked me to go to the gym with him,i said i can't because i have other plans.when the truth is i friggin don't.Azry asked me to go to Sunway Lagoon with him.Oh,come on.I so wanna go but still I said NO because im waiting for my friends to ask me out to hang out with 'em.Amar asked me to go to the movies with him.i said sorry no thank you,i have other things to do,busy busy.Cimek and Afiq asked me to hang with them,but i said sorry got other things and i don't think my boyfriend would want me to go out with other guys.Where are my gal friends? I wanna go and hang with you guys? Pleeeease.At least go out for lunch or something. Haih

Come on.Call me.Text me. I want to go and hangout with you guys. Is it to much to ask. :'(

Happy thoughts Happy thoughts

Emo fest so over. After some alone time and deep deep thinking I finally realise that there's no need for grief. Hey, we all have our drama's in life right?. This is one of mine. So i should deal with it.
Alright, enough obout that. I wanna think happy thoughts. The first thing that comes to mind when thinking about happiness is my boyfriend. Just the image of him smiling can make my day. He's the first thing that comes to mind when im awake and the last thing i think about before going to bed. Even just by typing these words about him made me smile. I don't care what my friends say about him. Because they all fade away when im with him. He's the only guy who has ever made me feel this way. Sometimes i get nervous and started to talk weird, i get unbalanced when im with him (literally),and he makes me speechless not to mention breathless.
In a nutshell, he's everything that i've ever wanted. I LOVE YOU AMIR.

Confusion

Hey hey. Raya is in two days from now but for some reason this year im not that excited about it. There's to much on my mind. Its kind of tiring. Watching everyone so enthusiastic about Raya. Oh god, whats wrong with me. Im becoming so confused about stuff lately that I can't seem to enjoy even the slightest of happiness thats happening right before my eyes. I keep staring into space wondering stuff that doesn't even make sense. haih.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE.
oh oh oh. Today i suddenly shed a tear of grief. eceh. yeah, i cried. Its been awhile since that happened to me. Why i cried? its because i felt guilty towards my friend. He expressed his feelings towards me and I may have said something that offended him in someway i think. because after i talked to him he said "Oh sorry then, i will forget about you." I tried to set things right but his responds was "I think u should stop texting me because if you tak stop nanti i'll never forget you.THATS WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT. sorry, im too upset to talk to you."
I was shocked after he said that. and BAAM suddenly tears started falling. It was the first time i've ever cried because of a guy. Man, its sounds so pathetic. Im so pathetic.The weird part is I keep wondering why? why did i cry because of this guy? Is he that special? is his feeling is that important to me? why?

WIsh i could stay at that moment. hmm. Miss it :(

Current Addiction and my Wants

Pfft :P

Its been awhile since I've updated my blog because of tumblr. Tumblr's awesome but i miss updating my blog. then again, i thought I've deleted my blog. Blog Blog blog. Its puasa season. its been half a month i think. i lost count. meh, its not like I'm lookin forward to hari raya anyways. damn PMR. I have to study like hell for PMR. after that, I'm gonna party like theres no tomorrow. I'm gonna shop till i drop. I'm gonna play games 24 hours non-stop. that will make me forget my urge to eat thus replacement for diet. I got to lose some budankadunks man. me wanna lose some fat. :(
hmm,whats new?? oh yeah, i got me a new boyfriend. I love you Amir Feriz Tan I miss my best friend, Elly so much. I barely see her nowadays. Next year, shes gonna be in form 3 so yeay. more time to spend with her. well, there are more people i miss so much besides Elly. Its my fault :( i haven't been spending time with them. I'm sorry guys. I want us to be okay again but i just don't know where to start and what to say. I admit this year I've changed a lot. Well, its my loss. :(
Time me for me to cope with PMR stress.well,wish me luck. I need it.

Thanks for the Memories :)

THANKS FOR MAKING 2008 AND 20O9 THE GREATEST YEAR OF MY LIFE